Why cant life be simple, why cant we control our emotions and why do things we see, do or listen to have to bring back memories and feelings we would sooner forget.
I was having a good day apart from my son being poorly and throwing up in the bath as I was running it. I put my boys to bed early 6.30 they where both exausted I then put some music on and the song by Lady Antebellum - Need You Now came on and it just made me feel sad.
Monday, 16 May 2011
Sunday, 15 May 2011
New Beginings, Starting Over
On 13th May I went to the Doctors as I have decided I need a little help with my feeling so I asked for some anti depressants and to be referred for counselling that's the first step in changing things, second was my slimavite arrived so on Saturday I am going to start on my self image first thing to do there is lose weight and thirdly I have to get out and meet people I need to make friends and socialize. Positivity that's the key.
Abit about my life
Over ther past four years I have been on a rollercoaster with lots of highs and lows, the past year however has been mainly lows.
I moved to Northern Ireland with my then 13 year old daughter Bethany in 2007, that year I met a man fell in love and fell pregnant, I thought I was finally going to have the family I had always dreamed off. My son George was born in April 2008 and that Decenber on my Birthday Ciaran took me out and proposed, I was so happy. We decided to have another baby but while I was pregant in July 2009 my Daughter Bethany came to me and asked if I would allow he to go home to England, as hard as that was for me I knew in my heart it was the best thing for her. In November of 2009 my son Charlie was born and my life seemed happy and complete. How wrong was I, in June of 2010 my life came crashing down around me six weeks before my wedding I found out the love of my life had been cheating and lying our entire relationship . I went from planning a wedding and the thoughts of my happy future to being a single mum for the second time. Over the past year I have struggled to come to terms with what has happened but as of Friday the 13th I am determined to make life better for me and my boys.
I moved to Northern Ireland with my then 13 year old daughter Bethany in 2007, that year I met a man fell in love and fell pregnant, I thought I was finally going to have the family I had always dreamed off. My son George was born in April 2008 and that Decenber on my Birthday Ciaran took me out and proposed, I was so happy. We decided to have another baby but while I was pregant in July 2009 my Daughter Bethany came to me and asked if I would allow he to go home to England, as hard as that was for me I knew in my heart it was the best thing for her. In November of 2009 my son Charlie was born and my life seemed happy and complete. How wrong was I, in June of 2010 my life came crashing down around me six weeks before my wedding I found out the love of my life had been cheating and lying our entire relationship . I went from planning a wedding and the thoughts of my happy future to being a single mum for the second time. Over the past year I have struggled to come to terms with what has happened but as of Friday the 13th I am determined to make life better for me and my boys.
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